Yes, I now know what it all means...and this is how it's gonna be. Gone are the days where we spend time always being there, gone are the days when you wait for smses or phone calls (Okay, I don't do that....BUT gone are the days when you are constantly in my mind!!)
How did it all get so wrong? wait...maybe it's not wrong, it's meant to be !! Shut Up Darshini!! Meant to be? Meant to hurt so much?? (Okay, let's diagnose this in proper...readers are getting confused..remember "people cannot read your mind!") see this is the problem...they can't read my mind and I expact them to understand me, who even I have a problem understanding.
I give up and I admit (something I hate doing) I was wrong...not such thing as "friends with benefits" - Delusional. It's all good in the beginning, but what happens when you fall in? My friend had to bring me to my sense...because throughout the whole period, sanity conveniently left, and when reality greedily changed its mind, it all came back. The harsh truth of the REAL WORLD! See, I live in a complete drama world, even if there isn't one, I delibrately make one and when it all goes tornado in there, I step out of it and make another. But there is nobody to blame. For once, I am not playing the BLAME GAME, but instead, I shall snowball it all and swallow it hard. I called it upon myself , big time. I let my guard real loose, for the umpteen time!! 4 more years to 30, sure I should have learnt something. And I'm glad to say, I now did - The B.I.T.C.H is now born (Babe In Total Control of Herself)
My new oath for here forward - "I shall continue to booty on the dance floor like I always do, enjoy this freedom of singlehood, love my body like I never loved it before, make them turn their heads and want me. I shall ignore all smses and phone calls, cause babe, I am not that easy no more. No doormat, No sweet girl!. It's the B.I.T.C.H. Because, you guys love it that way, and because I get a sense of pleasure doing it." - hang on, didn't sound very much like an oath, did it??.....
See, if you are reading this and still do not understand what I'm saying...I don't blame, this is deep s*&*t.
This B.I.T.C.H is born, she's here and she will conquer!!!
2 comments:
Good for your girl! Hope you don't fall off the bandwagon though.
We girls have to keep together..
Thanks babe...not to worry, even if i do fall...i will bounce back. Have you not seen me lately? ;)
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